Difficult Decisions
Yesterday I had to make the hardest decision of my life. I’d been dating someone for 5 years but I wasn’t truly happy. I loved him with all my heart but it wasn’t the sort of love you should feel for someone you’re with. He was very important to me and did so much for me. He took care of me and would bend over backwards for me. But it wasn’t always so perfect. We fought about some of the stupidest things. He would make me feel terrible for some of the things I thought or wanted to do. Making me feel like I was a terrible stupid person sometimes. But I knew he loved me… and I didn’t think anyone else could. So I stayed with him, trying to make myself love him again. We drifted apart.
Then I met J. We started off as friends because he knew I had a boyfriend and he didn’t want to cross that line. He didn’t want to ruin something I had with someone else. But My heart wasn’t happy with who I was with or who I was becoming. We saw the world differently and it hurt me. But then J and I talked a lot more. We hungout once but school work got in the way and we kind of stopped talking. Then a couple weeks ago I started talking to him a lot more. We talked and hungout a couple times. It was great! Then something happened… A friend and I went to his house for dinner. And then it happened. We slept together and I felt happy, really happy for the first time in a very long long time. That’s when I knew I wanted to try with this person.
And so I broke up with my boyfriend for him. It was a terrible break up but eventually things were okay. I cried so much I never thought I could feel so many different things all at once. But I had to follow my heart and give J a chance. and so my search begins for a replacement me in my ex’s life. I want to find him someone he can be happy with. Someone who he can show his love to and she will appreciate it. I haven’t know J long… but I may love him already… I’m afraid of that but at the same time… I’m ready.
This is my cousin Janet. She is looking for a bone marrow match. She has only 2 months to find her perfect match. All I’m asking is if you can please please please reblog this. You really don’t know how much this means to my family and I.. please all I’m asking is a simple reblog. You could have my cousins life, by reblogging and having people register.
Here are some helpful resources to register:
http://marrow.org/Join/Join_Now/Join_Now.aspx
http://www.asianmarrow.org/index.php/list-of-drives
http://www.aadp.org/drive/Please, if you have any questions about any of this, feel free to contact me (omgitshuong.tumblr.com) If you need help registering, PLEASE ask.. do not give up. Thank you so much to those who watched this, and listened.. and a very special thank you to those who register. Thank you so much!
30 day Princess Challenge in One post
30 DAY DISNEY PRINCESS CHALLENGE
DAY 1: Favorite movie- Mulan (even though it’s not a princess film idc)
DAY 2: Favorite princess - Pocahontas
DAY 3: Favorite prince - The Beast
DAY 4: Favorite song - Just around the river bend
DAY 5: Favorite kiss - Beauty and the Beast
DAY 6: Prettiest princess - Pocahontas
DAY 7: Favorite castle - Cinderella
DAY 8: Saddest moment - When Lee Shang places his fathers helmet on his sword as a marker for his grave… Looking over the bloody battle field and not being able to really say good bye to his father.
DAY 9: Favorite couple - Mulan and Lee Shang (still dont care if they aren’t part of the princess group)
DAY 10: Best hair - Rapunzel
DAY 11: Favorite animal sidekick - Mushu… hello a talking dragon? Common!
DAY 12: Favorite non-animal sidekick - Lumiere and Clogs-worth (the candle stick and clock from beauty and the beast)
DAY 13: Favorite outfit - Bell’s gold ball gown
DAY 14: Favorite villain - Ratcliff
DAY 15: Favorite romantic moment - When Aurora and the prince are singing together in the forest
DAY 16: Favorite singing voice - Rapunzel and Pocahontas
DAY 17: Best eyes - Rapunzel
DAY 18: Favorite name - Pocahontas
DAY 19: Favorite soundtrack - Mulan
DAY 20: Funniest moment - When Rapunzel is freaking out about her mother finding out she left the tower
DAY 21: Favorite quote - All around you are spirits, child. They live in the earth, the water, the sky. If you listen, they will guide you.—-Grandmother Willow
DAY 22: Bravest princess - Pocahontas and Mulan
DAY 23: Favorite dance scene - Beauty and the Beast
DAY 24: Favorite parent - Pocahontas’ father Chief Powatan
DAY 25: Favorite lyrics - “Look at me… you may think you see who I really am. But you’ll never know me”
DAY 26: Most magical moment - When the Beast transforms back into a human
DAY 27: Best wardrobe - Pocahontas in the second film. So many fun outfits haha
DAY 28: Favorite sequel - Pocahontas II
DAY 29: Favorite overall moment - When mushu becomes and family guardian again
DAY 30: Favorite happy ending - Mulan returns home to her family and Lee Shang comes to find her. She asks him if he’d like to stay for dinner and her grandmother yells “Would you like to stay forever?!”
Just EnVogue: ideal type
okay I will be honest with you guys about my ideal type.
Looks: I prefer pale Asians. I can’t think of dating a non asian right now. Girls should be tall and be at least 1m65…for guys I don’t think I care.
-have aims in your life successful people are sexy.
-be smart.
I mean I am not the…
I completely agree. Ignorant people offer nothing to a relationship and to life. I’m certainly not your type but we think the same way. I wish you luck in all your endeavors :)
The world is not so secretly against me. Somewhere there is someone up there that takes pleasure in watching me squirm….. Damn
It really doesn’t feel like it’s Christmas. I just don’t seem to be getting as excited as I used to. It’s kind of sad to realize that my days as a child really are over. Getting excited over something so small is over. It just feels like any other time of the year. Normally I’m really excited and cheerful but lately I just haven’t been feeling that happy holiday spirit…… :(. It’s like how the grinch stole Christmas Nd little Cindy Lou hoo feels that Christmas has lost it’s real meaning…. Has Christmas changed or just me?
Your Mistake
Am I your regret?
Am I your mistake?
You spoke words of sweetness
Your look gave me chills
Being called beautiful in the moonlight
I kissed you
You kissed me back
My heart raced
Touching you and being touched
Pleasure shared
Your first time, I thought it was special
I thought I was special
Then you take that away
I’m not your type
You tried but couldn’t anymore.
Tears were spilt
Laughter was grasped from my lungs
The beating muscle within my chest seemed to stop for a moment
I liked you… and I thought you liked me
I was wrong
I annoy you…
You act like nothing happened
I try to do the same
Pretending to be happy….
Forcing a smile for your sake?
No it was for my own
My eyes glance toward you
Hoping to see your smile just once more
My heart aches……
Please don’t make me wonder
Don’t see me as a mistake
I beg of you
Last night
Yesterday was just the worst day. honestly I wasn’t sure I was going to make it without kicking someone. I was late to my practice for Oral Exam in Chinese. Had to run all over campus just to get my papers. I wouldn’t have had to if the little girl I babaysat wouldn’t have SPILT her coolaid ALL OVER my papers and ruined them. but oh well she’s a little girl. Anyway was finally able to get all my papers together. Go to give them to the lady… she’s not in her office for the day. O.O
Well then hell I am pissed off now. I go with my friends to get the application for our apartment. I find out I have to get a co-signer. MY ENTIRE FAMILY HAS BAD CREDIT! wtf!? Then I realize my ID is at my friends house and I need it for later. shit! After that my friends take me out to dinner at my fav chinese buffet. YUMMY! That was a good part lol But then I go back to get ready to meet with a friend of mine. I get ready and put make up on. But when I try to find my blush, eyes shadows, and brushes…. they aren’t on my desk. WTF i search all over my room for them with only 10 minutes left to get ready before I have to leave. I am trying to get my friend to bring me my ID his phone is turned off. I can’t called him and idk who else is with him. He says he will bring it and so I say okay I will meet you at blah blah. OKay? Okat. I go there and am late. Can’t find my friend nor do I see my other friend. OMG where are these people?
I think I missed my first friend and he went home. Searching for my other friend I am going crazy. And to add to it IT FUCKING COLD!! Go inside and get on the computer because I am pissed and think my friend left. So i go to send him a message explaining why I wasn’t there and how I felt bad. But to my surprise he walks up behind me and isn’t angry at all. <3 Such a great guy.
anyway i get ahold of my other friend and he says he is on his way. I tell him okay we will meet you here. Go outside and wait…wait…wait… and wait… in the end he didn’t come it was my other friend who was on a date with her boyfriend who brought me my ID and money. Like really wtf… 2 and 1/2 hours waiting for something that literally took 5 minutes… such a life is mine. But After that it was all good. Drank with my friend and had a great time. Talked a lot and found out a lot about him too. I love staying up late and talking to friends. It’s much better than having to study. >P So actually yesterday wasn’t really that bad.. in fact it was a pretty good day in the end. Thanks to Cheech
